I don't know

I have no idea what to blog about.

I have severe sunburn on my chest. It's on my face and ears as well. It hurts so bad. I wore sunscreen. This has never happened to me before. It hurts so bad. I have to just keep applying cream and staying out of the sun. Okay..I can do that.

I went shopping and got some new healthy foods.

Maybe I can get out of the rut I was in with only eating chicken and pizza. I went to a different grocery store besides Wal-Mart so I was able to find a healthy food section.

These white guys that were working where checking me out something serious.
They flipped a coin to see who would bag my stuff and who would help me take it to the car. Get a life. Well I was looking pretty fly today in my new outfit. Don't hate.

Sometimes its just time to move on.

There comes a point where you realize that you can't live for someone else. They may want you to be the same person you were when you were younger and keep you wrapped around their finger but it doesn't work like that anymore. Sometimes you get to a point where you don't even care anymore. Sad but true

Another person at my school died this weekend. This will be the third or fourth person to die during the 2007-2008 school year. How sad!

A lot of stuff happened this weekend but I don't feel like getting into it. I was ripping and running all weekend.

I'm tired. I'll be back tomorrow.

Tired

I am so tired right now.

Tired because it seems like I can never get enough sleep. I go to sleep early at night and still wake up tired. Must be my diet.

I am so tired of Guy #2 (nice guy)

He called me again last night and I didn't answer it. He never leaves me messages so I don't know if he is mad or if he just wants to check up on me. Oh well. I'm prob not going to answer his calls anymore anyway. I just don't feel like being bothered.

I'm tired of being broke.

I saw some cute clothes I want at the mall yesterday and I never have any money. Even if I get money I have to put it to my bills and rent. Maybe I should get another job. Maybe not.

I am tired of the songs on my i-pod.

I have a lot of songs on my i-pod and a lot of space left. I really need to go to i-tunes and see what's up with some new music.

I am so tired of babysitting

Only a few more days and then I can stop. Just a few more days.

I am so sick of eating the same thing.

I am really picky and I don't like to try new things so I am basically in a pizza/chicken routine at home. Might as well just eat cookies for dinner again!!! Those soft batch cookies are so good. At the store yesterday I saw they had
MRS. FIELDS SOFT BATCH COOKIE ICE CREAM SANDWICH!!!!

OMG!!! The only reason I didn't get it was because it was $4.00 for only five of those things and I would have ate them all in like 2 days.

From my last post some people were asking me what a simp was.
A simp is a lame. Someone who is just willing to do anything a female wants and does everything a female says. Just someone who is whipped or sprung. They don't even want nothing in return. Not like a guy who opens the door for you but a guy who opens your door while holding your purse while you have a boyfriend. I don't know its hard to explain. Can anyone else help?

But yeah like I said I am just sick of a lot of things. Plus I am literally sick. My nose, throat, and ears hurt so bad.

I was all excited about the Deaf camps that I am going to this summer until my dad reminded me about camp food and showers..etc. I am such a girly girl. I have never experienced camp before. I'm scared. HELP!

How should I do this?

I've decided. I'm not going to call Guy #1(the one from high school) because what's the point. If I have to think about calling him then I don't need to.

So now that he's out of the picture....Guy #2(religious)

He called me last night and I didn't answer. I just don't really have anything to say to him. You want me to be honest. Well one of the main reasons I don't want to talk to him his because he's a MAJOR simp.

We got simps and then we got MAJOR simps.

He just says the most random things to me. Because he is all about family (his parents are still married...how often do you see that in the black community?) getting married and having kids he just brings it up all the time with me. I ABSOLUTELY HATE THAT!!!!

He talks about where he would take me if/when we go on a honeymoon and how soon will I want kids after I graduate.(A close friend of mine is going to clown me for this one..lol) Most of the time he is joking but I can tell deep down he might really be serious.

I really don't even care if he is joking anymore. It's just annoying. He doesn't even really know me. He has met me once.

Where is he coming with this? I maybe going to grad school in the city he lives in so I'm guessing this is where his "hope for the future" comes in. I know he's all about family and relationships but don't bring that shit to me. And he's so cocky.

So how should I do this? Should I just stop answering the phone when he calls period? Should I answer and tell him I will call him back and don't? (LMAO) Should I change my number? Should I call him and tell him how I feel about the situation? Any other suggestions? I really don't want to call him and tell him how I feel because it shouldn't be that serious. Me calling and telling him "I don't like your simpish ways and I can't be myself. Maybe we shouldn't talk anymore."

That is just corny to me.

We don't see each other and prob never will after this. Or should I give him another chance and just try to be myself?

On the real...it's really not that serious. Why am I putting all this energy into the situation?

BTW I was tagged by Rey

Six Things

The rules are that I’m supposed to answer the questions about myself. I then at the tag 5-6 people at the end of the post and then go on their blogs to leave a comment, letting them know they have been tagged so they can respond also. Here are the questions:

1) What was I doing 10 years ago?

May 1998 I was in high school. That's all I remember. Going to 10th grade.

2) What are 5 things on my to-do list for today (not in any particular order): return an outfit, figure out when I am going to visit ATL, figure out when I'm going to visit PA, call a scholarship place and that's about all.

3) Snacks I enjoy: cookies, ice cream, chips...I love to snack.

4) Things I would do if I were a billionaire: Move up out of the south and do all the things on my bucket list.

5) Places I have lived: SC, NC, TX, NY

6) Jobs I have had: sales associate, daycare teacher, data entry

7) peeps I want to know more about - ?

Continued!!!

About 10 minutes after I posted the "Stop Calling Me" guy number 2 called. I decided to answer. I have no idea why. When I answered the phone there was a lot of noise in the background. I asked him where he was and he said he was chillin at his homeboy's house. I HATE that! It just made me think that during the conversation he was going to try to front in front of his friends.

(*The last time I talked to him I told him I would call him back in 2 min and I never did...on purpose)

So anyway he asked me where I had been since I have not been calling him or answering. I told him I was busy and getting sick.

Him: "Well what happened to two minutes? That turned into 24 hours."

Me: "Well I was talking to my mom and it got late."

Him: "Yeah whatever, well two minutes has been passed. I was just calling you to see if you were alive. I'll talk to you later."

Me: Click

Don't be trying to play me just because you are in front of your lil friends. He must don't know me. I don't play that. So yeah I was pissed.....oops I forgot he hates it when I use that word. I told you he was a good guy. The attitude in his voice was just like he was trying to front for his boys.

He has called me twice after this and I only answered once. All he talked about was how fly he looked last weekend and the new clothes he is going to start wearing. A cocky guy is a turn off to me. There is nothing wrong with confidence but I hate cocky.

Guy # 2

Well I have not even attempted to call him back. I listened to the voice mail he left me again and I thought.."well maybe he just wants to talk. we have known each other from high school." Oh well!

So now I'm going to go back and respond to all the comments that were left from my last post.

Stop Calling Me

Ok so here's the deal. I wished for male friends/someone to chill with. Well be careful what you wish for!

So first there is this guy that I know from high school that I have been in contact with here and there. We were I guess "talking" in high school (how lame). It was the old my friend likes his friend and I like him crap. One day this lil thug that I was talking to decided that he was going to try to open up to me. Telling me about his family problems and how is dad won't do anything for him. Then he gonna ask me to co-sign for him a car. We were still teenagers. I moved away and never heard from him since...until........this year a few months ago. I saw one of his best friends on myspace and decided to e-mail him to see how the old crew was doing. He told me that lil thug didn't have a cell phone but he would give him my number.

Don't have a cell phone....wtf! Who in the year 2008 over the age of 6 doesn't' have a cell phone. Maybe his boy was trying to cover for him. Maybe he has a girl and he doesn't want me to call the cell. I get it and I really don't care. Him having a girl don't have nothing to do with me. I am not trying to make him my man.

Anyway so we talked on the phone a few time. LAME! He doesn't have a computer. He told me that the LIBRARY won't let you look at certain stuff so he can't get on myspace to talk to me.


Strike 1

Then he says he has a daughter.

Strike 2

Then he tells me that after high school he didn't go to college and he is now working at a grocery store.

Strike 3

I know your probably saying "well how can you strike out friends" well friends may (not always) have the potential to be more than friends and friends may start to like you in a more than friendly way and for me it's hard to let them know I'm not interested.

So after a few conversations this friend kept wanting to know when I was going to be in town and do I think things would have progressed to a relationship if I wouldn't have moved??? The conversation was just boring and lame. I hate going back in the past. So I just stopped calling. I hated calling his damn house anyway. Who does the "can I speak to so and so" when their dad answers.

He called me last night and left a message telling me that he was going through some papers and found my number and he wanted to see what was up with me. Should I call back??

This is getting long...but I'm not done....

Friend #2

I met him(in person..not on the internet lol) at the end of last year and he is a really cool and nice guy. He's what I call a good ol fashioned southern guy. Actually too good. I can't be myself around him because he is such a good guy. He's 21 and is not having sex until he gets married. He is really into church and religion.

The thing with him is he doesn't live in my state so our interaction is mainly on the phone. Because I can't be myself 100% its kind of awkward and the conversation is really boring sometimes. He's the type that will call me and if I don't answer call me right back like two more times.
With him I kind of feel like if we had face to face communication things would be a lot different but because we are not its just dull.
He has called me like 3 times in the past week and I haven't answered. He called yesterday and I told him I would call him back and I didn't.....Should I?

Bucket List

So I decided that I would make another list. What are some things I want to accomplish before I die? It was kind of hard to think of things so I am going to keep this short.

1. Live in NYC- For some reason this city just does it for me. 90% of my family lives in NY but my dad actually lives in NYC. When I went to visit him I had so much fun. I didn't get to go out and "really" experience NYC or the nightlife because my dad is not playing that even at 24. A strange big city alone...he's not having that.
I want to one day live in NYC in a nice loft apartment and take the subway to work. Even if only for a year. It's just something I want to do.

2. Of course you all know my love for ASL and Deaf Education. I want to one day be fluent. They say it takes 5-7 years to become fluent. I want to one day be there.

3. Have children- NO TIME SOON!!!!! DO YOU HEAR ME...NO TIME SOON. Let's just hope I don't die tomorrow. I used to want 4-5 kids but now three will do. I can handle that. I want to experience motherhood one day.

4. Get masters degree- I will be the first person in my family to do this so I have to make it happen. I will make it happen.

5. Be debt free- You don't even want to know how much my student loan's are right now. I have one credit card bill that I know I can knock out in like less than 6 months if I had a real job but them loans are something serious. And I have not even added masters on top of that.

6. Family tree- I would love to have a real family tree done. I want to know where I come from. My dad doesn't know his side of the family so I don't either. I just don't have the money to pay one of those online companies to do this.

7. And finally because I am a "dreamer" I would like to go on a vacation. Like a romantic vacation. The ones you see in the movies that white people take. Just chilln like a mug.

BTW- I made all A's this semester. President's List!!!

Speaking of "friends"

So I have been talking a lot lately about me wanting male "friends" and not a relationship. I started making a list in my head of somethings a guy has to have in order for me to give him the time of day.(there are some exceptions to every rule...just depends)

-He has to know something about technology and computers. I can't stand a guy who don't know shit about computers. Now I am not a know it all when it comes to computers but if a guy doesn't even know how to google then we have a problem.

-Needs to know how to dress. I can't stand to see guys wearing white tee's all the time and just in hip hop mode all day long. He has to have various clothing for various occasions.

-This is a MUST- Be able to switch up when it comes to personality. What I mean by this is I need someone who can kick it with the fellas but also know how to talk to the white man in a respectable manner.

-Has to have a love of reading or a desire to read. I remember when I would check people's myspace pages and they would put : they hate to read or "reading...what is that". or better yet "if it doesn't have pictures in it I'm not reading it."
I love going to the bookstore and LOVE reading. It's one of my favorite things to do. If you don't even know where the bookstore is in your area...keep it moving.

-Be up to date with some current events. Now I don't read the newspaper like that, watch the news often or know a lot of details all the time but I do know what's happening in the election and
OJ confessing to murder of his ex wife (I don't know about that one...saw it on Nancy Grace..breaking news) So you have to be able to know a lil something.

-Knows how to step to me on a courtesy level. I don't need no little boy coming up to me with this "hey ma" or "red shirt, ay red shirt let me hollacha" nonsense.
Step to me with something random. Fellas that will ALWAYS work trust me.
For example: If I am at the grocery store and you see me. Don't come up to me talking about "hey how you doing" all slow like. Come to me and say "oh have you tried those before? I was thinking about making something like that...blah blah." It throws the female off because already she is programmed to think you are going/trying to holla.
Then you can say "well let me give you my number so you can call me and tell me how to make it or better yet come over so you can teach me." Then keep it moving. No need to sit up there and cupcake with me.

That's about all I'm going to say about that. Just random thoughts in my idle mind while I wait here until 4 or until this lil grown boy wakes up.


I have a question: Would you date someone who had a piece of shit of a car? Be real and honest now. He/She pulled up to meet you for lunch in something you would never drive?

Yea call me superficial but I would have a issue with this. I used to think "oh how he dresses doesn't matter and what he drives shouldn't matter...its all about personality."
Well it does matter. (to me anyway...lol) Now I have mentioned before that I don't like a flashy guy with rims or tv's in the car but don't pull up in a 1987 Black Acura Integra.
The person I am with is a reflection of me and dressing/cars/house/personality etc tells me how much swag he has. He likes nice things.

This babysitting thing has me posting a lot. I do nothing and get paid for it.